For those of you who follow regularly, you’ve heard me mention from time to time that I lied to myself for many years. Tried my damndest to avoid, ignore and subvert the fact that I have a mental illness. I tried all the usual denial techniques, self-improvement books to transform my life, and ultimately self… Continue reading A Lifetime Choice
Ever have one of those days when despite your better judgement you find yourself becoming more and more upset about something out of your control? You can feel your blood pressure rising, your face becoming flush and no matter how many deep breathing techniques you try to remember there is no stopping this train? This… Continue reading When to say No
For an entire week I was on top of the world. Felt like the best week I can remember this past year. Great energy, healthy appetite, a to-do list as long as my arm that I was checking off as fast as I could. Actually being engaged with life, with my friends and family. Putting… Continue reading What goes up must come down
I did it again. I woke up disappointed in myself, and my progress this morning. Fortunately these days are becoming fewer and far between, but these days still exist and I’m sure you can relate. You were having a good day, a better than average day, and you think because you’ve had the handle on… Continue reading The Language of Depression
Part 2 in my series "Working with Professionals", a look into life in therapy. For the majority of my life I was self-managed in the mental health department. Deaths, failures, depression, divorce and trauma were in all in my wheelhouse. I had friends and family to vent to. Writing to explore and release my thoughts and emotions. When these failed I could self-medicate until I felt better or simply forgot the pain, if only temporary. Counselling and therapy were for the real serious shit, and my shit was never serious enough to need help.
Part one in my series "Working with Professionals". This time a look into relationships with doctors. Facing illness both physical and mental comes with its own set of challenges. It can be scary and frustrating and difficult at times. With the right communication, it can also be rewarding.
So just as I was getting the idea to start this little blog, it was 2am and my brain wouldn’t shut off. I had Twenty Years in my head and had to get it out and on paper. Not because I thought I would lose some gold or anything, I was just obsessed with the… Continue reading Family